I SHALL BE BLOGGING IN CAPS IF I'M MAD,
IF NOT, NO CAPS.

I'VE FOUND SOME INTERESTING FACTS ABOUT MY BLOG.
PEOPLE FIND MY ENTRIES,
ANNOYING, BITCHY, HURTFUL, TROUBLE-MAKING, LOADS OF OTHER WORDS I CAN THINK OF.

seriously,
ain blogs supposed to be something personal?
SOMETHING THAT THE OWNER CAN ACTUALLY EXPRESS HIS/HER FEELINGS.
BUT NO,
SOME PEOPLE ARE ACTUALLY AGAINST MOST OF MY ENTRIES,
HAVING THEIR OWN PERSONAL NEGATIVE VIEWS,
YES, YOU HEARD ME RIGHT,
NEGATIVE,
NEGATIVE VIEWS.


i seriously dont dont dont get it.
I KNOW THAT I'M STRAIGHTFORWARD,
BUT NOT SO STRAIGHTFORWARD AS IN,
whenever i see someone walk past me, i'll shout,
"HEY!! look at that girl!! her hair's weird!!"
not that straightforward.
WANNA KNOW WHY I'M POURING OUT EVERYTHING HERE?
well, as i've said,
blogs are like a personal diary,
owners can discuss, swear or bitch in their blogs.
its like an online journal,
just that people are able to see what you've written.


AGAINST MY ENTRIES IS ONE THING,
the second thing is, i know that even my own sibling cant stand what i've written.
example,
if i induce vommitting, she will shout,
"FUCKER, WHY THE FUCK DO YOU KEEP MAKING YOURSELF VOMIT? ITS HURTING YOUR FUCKING ORGANS, YOU WANNA DIE, FINE! DIE THEN"

if i cut myself, she'll say,
"MOTHER FUCKER, WHY THE FUCK DO YOU COPY ME? DONT ACT LAH."

i mean, WTH?
cutting yourself aint copying nor it meant that i'm a big RIP-OFF.
oh whatever (:


i've been feeling so fucked up and upset from the starting of this week.
everytime i woke up,
i'll just hope that today's just another ordinary day,
dont need to rejoice over it.

i'm so upset on the 25th.
seriously i am.
well sister, wanna know what i did on that particular day?

I'VE CUT MYSELF 12 TIMES ON MY ARMS.
happy now?
i guess not.. oh well~


i've finally done my coursework!!
YESYESYESYES!!
i neednt procrastinate it any longer,
nor get so grief-stricken over it.
=)


i DONT hate alibaba or those people whom i'm hanging out with.
it feels kinda nice to have someone behind you,
cheering you on.
love you guys, alibaba & asg (:


i suddenly felt that i've began to love someone again..
that feeling,
cant undescrible.
it just feels nice :D


got an email from mrs neo.
we dint attend the batik painting thing on either the 20th or 22th of april.
hahaha!
so, no points, we're never getting the PNA gold.
oh well~


goodbye for now